Even in our freedom gained through true salvation, maintaining faith that God's plan is still in effect in the face of extreme adversity is difficult.  We are on the training range and the battlefield simultaneiously.   Ephesians 6:13 does not say put on part of the armour of God, but the whole armour of God.  I may still piecemeal my armour but I am learning that God hast to be at the center or actions become mine, not his.   It is a unique perspective to think that when we are on the offense we need to be in a position of surrender. Selfish revenge is not what God had is mind when he said Vengeance is mine. Romans 12:19 -21: Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave iti to the wrath of God, for it is written, “Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.” 20 To the contrary, “if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink; for by so doing you will heap burning coals on his head.” 21 Do not be overcome by evil, but ov...